When I first came across A Course in Miracles, I thought it was bunk. A friend gave me the book as a gift. As I was peeling away the shrinkwrap, my initial reaction was, “Cool … I always wanted to learn how to perform miracles.”
My excitement quickly faded as I started flipping through the pages. This feels just like Bible paper. And what are all these Christian references?
The more I read, the more convinced I was that no rational, intelligent person could believe what this course was teaching.
I threw the book away.
But in a bizarre twist, the book kept calling out to me. I had never had any mystical experiences – and didn’t believe in any such chicanery. But I felt this ongoing pull to retrieve the book from the trash. And so I did, only to once again come to the conclusion that it was some sort of religious cult.
And so I threw the book away again.
But I felt that same undercurrent pulling me back toward that damn course.
I decided the only way to rid myself of this book once and for all was to fly across the country to Temecula, CA (at the time I lived near Philadelphia, PA) and meet this Ken Wapnick fellow who had been part of the course’s entree into the world and was teaching workshops near San Diego.
Once I met Ken, I would finally see through the charade and cut my ties with this course.
A New Beginning
I walked into a small entry room where receptionists were handing out name tags for workshop participants. One of the receptionists was an unassuming, somewhat nerdy-looking balding man with a thick Brooklyn accent and a pronounced speech impediment (stutter). This was Ken Wapnick. He came around the table to shake my hand.
And life as I knew it changed.
I had never before been in the presence of someone who had so transcended their ego. I felt this incredible aura of love, compassion, and non-judgment. It was the most surreal encounter I had ever experienced.
No words were initially spoken, yet I was overcome with this one idea: What if all my thoughts about the course (and so many other things in life) were coming from a place of judgment? And from there came the wonderment of what it would be like to experience the world (and people) from a place of non-judgment.
Thus began my quest to learn from transformational thought systems, people, and experiences – and practice them in my life that has been chock full of judgement, attack, and the aggrandizement of my ego.